Runaway

running away doesn't solve the problem.but at least it calms me down.
I'll walk back home when I'm done.then I'll figure it all out.
I'll be fine.I'll always be.

:)

if I could make notes for myself and stick it on the wall, I swear all the notes can turn into wallpaper.i just have so many things to remind myself.people forget right,I'm no exception.especially when I'm taken over by emotions,I tend to forget.there are just so many life lessons.each and every one of us has different list.but in the end,everyone just wants to be happy :) and that's all that really matters.

haram.

kalau cerita pasal haram, banyak benda yang haram.tak payah la nk point out satu-satu salah orang lain.benda haram yang orang lain buat.duduk depan cermin tengok diri sendiri dulu.betulkan salah silap diri dulu.kalau rasa-rasa diri tu buruk, layak ke nak komen dan mengutuk orang lain yang buruk jugak?
do you actually think that you're in a good position to look down and ridicule other poeple for their mistakes?
we are all humans.we all make mistakes
we are all the same.

black is MY new black!

I don't know why I suddenly have this obsession over the colour black. I know I know, everyone loves black.but the thing is, I've never looked at black as 'my' colour. I mean yes it's elegant and all but I don't prefer black over any other colours. I've always wanted a 'different' look and I thought black was just ordinary.as my friends put it, I like to make statement with shoking colours.like my red cardigan, pink shoes etc. so I just realized that only NOW that I've actually appreciate the colour black.heh, lambat gila kan, yes I know. so I've been buying black skirt, black blouse, black scarf and I've been looking for a black handbag! what is wrong with me?I've gone mad! ok,I've always been mad anyway, but this is just crazy. semua nak pakai hitam kot. what is my problem?let me just answer myself, I have no idea.oh wth, I'm currently enjoying the colour and embracing my obsession!haha :D

p/s: oh and the picture is to prove how much I love black.haha.and tgh perasan.almaklumlah, tak dapat jadi model.so tak payah kutuk, let me just have my moment ok.thank you

My Snowman

I had a strange dream. There was a girl and a guy, in a cold snow.

I saw a girl under a bridge. I could tell that she was really mad and upset. She was screaming and crying to a guy in front of her. It seems like she's breaking up with him. He keeps on trying to calm her down. It seems to me like he'll never give up on her. Patience was written all over him. But the girl never stopped crying. She looked all messed up and horrible.

That went on for a really long time and I got really cold. Snow was falling even heavier now. It was as cold as the girl was. I got tired of following their drama and I turned around. That's when a saw a guy standing behind me. I didn't realize when he came but it seems like to me that he has been standing there the whole time. I told him I was cold, and that I was sleepy. He didn't utter a single word. We just laid down on the cold snow. I don't know why, I didn't feel so cold anymore. He puts his jacket on me and we faced each other. I could feel his warmth without a single touch. We were staring at each other. The fact that we didn't know each other wasn't even awkward at all. It was peaceful and calming. It's like we're travelling in each other's eyes, trying to find a place called home. I feel safe, after a really long time.

When I looked back under the bridge, the couple was gone. And then I fell asleep. I woke up at a different place. I never knew what happend to the guy who accompanied me. I didn't even know his name. I thought about him every once in a whole now. I really want to get to know him. I call him, my Snowman. And it was a strange dream.

falling

this is me,swallowing my pride
i let my self fall,again
when i've sworn to myself it'll never happen again.
and there you are,working your way in a crowded room
staring at me,right through my heart
i fell.
run,catch me!

A box of plans.

And finally, I'm free!literally.free from law books and stress. :) this is so absolutely awesome.well I have to say it's a bit weird at first.going back home and realizing that I don't have to open any books and write notes or memorize cases.it feels, FREEEE!

I, finally, after a few months bought a what-I-think-is a good book my Paolo Coelho, Brida.started reading a few pages and I have a good feeling about the story.very awakening.i miss flipping pages of a book, reading every words with my soul and feeling a strange loneliness in a calm silence.

I have a box full of plans and dreams for this 3 weeks time I have for myself. I hope everything goes as planned.I'm putting a really high hopes on it.and I have a really good feeling about this.I hope I won't give up or back out.I need more adrenaline,I am a teen. I should drink more coffee.yeahhh,I don't know how,but somehow I just feel like coffee is my own personal spirit booster.haha.

I think it's pretty obvious that this entry is really really random. I swear I have so many things to say.But I guess I'm just too lazy to type.Twilight is distracting me,urgghhh.I suck at multitasking.I should go now.please pray that everything I planned work out perfectly.I really need it.and now I shall focus on Edward's beauty.byee