Suprises!

Yesterday was an absolute fun!hehe.terharu gila dyana, nadia, kireen, qis, shahrul, syazwan and rizlan buat suprise.first time kot :D

Mula2 mlm tu dyana n nad, roomates tersyg nyanyi kan birthday song tepat 12am.then that was it. esk nya ada tutorial n lecture law soc. lps tu sume dyana n nad duk bising2 nak blk. sedih gilaaaaa :( to make things worse, i have to call a list of firms for the LCC. birthday kene buat keje. sedih!then tiba2 kireen kesian then offerkan diri nk teman buka sama2.so plan nk pergi OU. ajak dyana n nad tp dua2 mcm mls nk lyn je. ok then dh pukul 4.30 pm nk pergi OU tiba2 kereta kene clampppppp!!!!TERBAIKKKKKKKKK!!!the best birthday present everrrrr! so not funny ok!!grrrrrrr marah gila! last2 we decided to take a cab sbb kireen dgn semangat waja nya nk pergi jgk keluar! dia nk pergi curve pulak sbb xpernah pergi sana. ok so ikut je.

smpai2 sana beli tshirt F.O.S atas hasutan kireen.hehe tp comel so xpe :) then dh nk buka puasa minah tu xdecide lagi nk buka kat mana!boleh x??perut dh lapar gila dh niiii!! last2 gi mcd je. then tiba2 kireen xnk mcd so she bought the meal utk aku sorg je.dia xda. -___________-" aduhh minah ni.dia kata td nmpk ada kedai mkn mcm best je nk mkn sana.so angkut jela mcd tu bwk gi kedai dia tu. then smpai2 je the Garden tu nmpk nadia.then tiba2 dlm otak "eh nadia?apa dia buat kt sini?" hahaha.then nmpk rizlan pulak.pastu br nmpk semua org. hahahaha diorg kenekn aku rupanya!

pastu diorg nyanyi birthday song lagi. dpt cupcakes yg sgt cute!awwwhh.and nad dgn sgt sweet nye take note aku pny status kt fb mlm tu that says "19 candles 19 wishes?". and guess what?i got my 19 candles!!yeayyyyyy!! :D and then makan2, amek gmbr, bual2, lawak bdoh sume as usual.hehe.u guys are the best!love you too peeps!!

and then bila dh blk tu tgh lepak2 kt bilik tiba2 faeqah call.tny kt mana.then aku ckp kt bilik.pastu aku tny dia lupa ke birthday aku hrni.sedih gila xwish2 pown lg!then dia mcm terkejut gila.lupa :( hm xpe lah.at least td dh celebrate. then almost midnight tgh elok2 dgr lagu tiba2 org ketuk pintu bilik dgn sgt kuatnya.SGT KUAT OK! nk gugur jantung!! dlm hati "ni mesti psl clamp td tu.hishhh nk apa lg". then bkk pintu faeqah, sha n aida pgg cake smbil nyanyi birthday song.awwwwhhhh sweet gilaaaaa :) sumpah terkejut. then ajak diorg masuk bual2 kejap, mkn cake then diorg blk.

all and all it was a freaking awesome birthday! a great way to celebrate the last year as a teenager. is there such thing?hehe apa2 lah.yg penting kwn2 suma sgt2 sweet. sayang korg lah! <3333

p/s:pics will be uploaded later on.and the 19wishes list will also be posted when i'm done listing it down. :)

We'll Be A Dream

At times in life, I feel like poeple will just walk beside me when they need me. And when there's a moment in time when I need them to really be there for me, they'll make themselves invisible.

I don't want to have to say this but it's true. I wish it's not. I guess that's life huh. That's how people are, and how they'll always be. There's absolutely nothing I can change about it. And there's no point of even trying to. But I definately can change myself. I don't have to make everyone feel happy. Especially when they doesn't make me feel the same way.

Ramadhan

today's the third day of puasa.
buka puasa with nadia farihahaha just now at mamak.
haha :D
sedap ouhh!
anyway, puasa this time around is a lot harder since i'm fatter now.
i constantly need food to complete me and since it's the fasting month, i feel incomplete the whole day until it's maghrib.then i'll be the happiest kid on earth.
heh i know i shouldn't be saying that.
hikmah bulan puasa adalah untuk tahan nafsu.
ok ok, tgh belajar nk tahan niiiii.
hm.hopefully bulan ramadhan ni dapat keberkatan.
harap dipermudahkan segala urusan.
lately ni rasa macam everything is so hard.
selalu rasa down and sad and hopeless.
bukan nak merungut but it's the truth.
sedih sangat rasa macam ni.
i want to be enthusiastic and happy and excited and all of those things i used to feel.
i could hardly recall the last time i feel so happy and excited.
it's probably during my school years.
yeah i know.sad.
it's so dissapointing that i'm turning into this, stranger.
i feel so disconnected from my surrounding.
i don't feel excited or curious to get to know people or what's going on around me.
i'd be more comfortable alone.
though it makes me sad.
i really really hope i can go through all this and not lose myself.
i just want to be happy.
hopefully this month could bring me at least a little joy and strength.
amin.