Ramadhan

today's the third day of puasa.
buka puasa with nadia farihahaha just now at mamak.
haha :D
sedap ouhh!
anyway, puasa this time around is a lot harder since i'm fatter now.
i constantly need food to complete me and since it's the fasting month, i feel incomplete the whole day until it's maghrib.then i'll be the happiest kid on earth.
heh i know i shouldn't be saying that.
hikmah bulan puasa adalah untuk tahan nafsu.
ok ok, tgh belajar nk tahan niiiii.
hm.hopefully bulan ramadhan ni dapat keberkatan.
harap dipermudahkan segala urusan.
lately ni rasa macam everything is so hard.
selalu rasa down and sad and hopeless.
bukan nak merungut but it's the truth.
sedih sangat rasa macam ni.
i want to be enthusiastic and happy and excited and all of those things i used to feel.
i could hardly recall the last time i feel so happy and excited.
it's probably during my school years.
yeah i know.sad.
it's so dissapointing that i'm turning into this, stranger.
i feel so disconnected from my surrounding.
i don't feel excited or curious to get to know people or what's going on around me.
i'd be more comfortable alone.
though it makes me sad.
i really really hope i can go through all this and not lose myself.
i just want to be happy.
hopefully this month could bring me at least a little joy and strength.
amin.