Of Silence.

These past days, I have been starting the day off really early. Works pilling up,so a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do. haha ok random. but yeah, it's been a really long day, long week. I have two assignments to finish up this week, and another test in between those two due dates. yes, i know, ryte. my favourite line these past week has been 'i think i just died' or 'i'm dying' or simply just 'kill me!!'. anyting that has got to do with death. so that I don't have to face the world anymore. I think the world hates me -__-"

anyways, I have realized that I enjoy silence, most of the time. I prefer being alone,but I don't like feeling lonely.that's the worst thing a human being could ever feel.but it's just weird right, I want to be alone but I don't want to feel lonely.doesn't it means the same?NO, of course not.sometimes you could even be in a room full of people and yet you feel so lonely inside.somestimes it's fulfilling to just sit in a library,listen to the music,and trying to understand a 34pages of case in front of you.well,you could only reach the fulfilling level when you've actually understood the case,but you get what I mean right.it's just,doing your own thing.well at least this principle applies to me.hehe.oh yes, and I think I like it better when my phone is on silent mode.haha isn't that just simply bizarre.

people has been saying thing like"if you dont talk,you're not gona be a good lawyer" or, "a good lawyer is the one that defends himself/herself"or, "are you just going to keep quiet in the court room then?". that's a pretty narrow thought.well, at least I think.just because I'm silent, doesn't mean I don't have the ability to talk.just because I'm quiet,doesn't mean I'm a corward or I'm scared of you.just because I don't defend myself doesn't mean I have nothing going on in my mind at that precise moment. I'm silent because I'm listening. I'm quiet because I'm thinking. and I don't defend myself because I'm actually giving you space to talk because I know that's what you want out of the argument.I don't want to lower my standard to yours. I don't need attention. I'm here to gain knowledge. not to show off.I'm not saying I'm smart or anything,but just remember this, just because a person is usually of silence, doesn't make then any less than you are, as a person or as a student.my father told me that the most quiet girl in her class is now a High Court judge.so now,as a law student, I actually have an authority to what I'm saying. :)

so, I just think that there's nothing wrong about not being talkative or a defensive person.there are many many MANY other elements to be considered.probably,better elements.some, you probably just can't see.because you've been using all your sights to things that actually,hm doesn't matter, shall I say.

ok,my point here is actually me enjoying silence.but of course,a normal stressful law student would have gotten emotional and talk about everything else related to the topic.haha.so yeah.I shall go no futher because a copy of a case beside my laptop has been jumping up and down the whole time I'm blogging.so I shall entertain them.and of course finish up my assignment.bye!